I got to drive you to school, just you and me today,
Marcus. Your dad stayed home with the little ones. You said “I love school
mom,” and I smiled because yesterday you hated it, or you said you did. I know
you love it, but I try not to dwell on it because you hate that, and that makes
you hate everything. As we drove, you
saw birds, and you asked me, “Why do birds like to sit on the power lines?”
After muttering something about how much they can see from up there, I broke
into song. “Why do birds suddenly appear… every time…you are near? Just like
me, they long to be, close to you.” You
smiled, knowing I was teasing but meaning it at the same time. As we got closer
to school you told me to stop singing. As if you would be embarrassed by your
mother! I stopped singing that song, and I said, “Ok Marcus, but just let me
ask you this question- are you a man, or are you a muppet?” And I belted song
number two. You tried not to laugh as you hit me and shushed me. I did shush, after I had my fill of teasing
and you had your fill of smacking and laughing. I reminded you that you had an egg in your
bag for show-n-tell. It was a plastic egg, but I told you it was a rotten egg
and you could stink up your class with it. Your eyes danced, and you grabbed
it, knowing I was teasing you but hoping I had really somehow figured out how
to make a plastic egg into a stink bomb. Not yet, Marcus. I’ll leave that one
for you to figure out someday.
Peter.
You heard me belt out “Go potty for naps!” and you
started running frantically. I was downstairs finishing up laundry, so you shut
the door on me, as if a shut door would really be a roadblock between your
mommy and naptime. “Nice try Pete, but mommy is so big, I know how to open
doors all by myself!” I opened the door and you were there grinning big,
waiting for me to chase you. You ran and I grabbed you, changed you through
your wiggles, and wrapped you in your fresh-from-the-dryer blankie. I laid you
in bed and you yelled BLANKIE! “You have your blankie!” I said. “Oh, you mean
your pillow pet?” “Blankie!” You said, giggling happily because I understood. I
got it for you and gave you sloppy cheek kisses. “Tuck! TUCK!” You screamed. “OH,
tuck you?” I asked. More giggles, and I tucked you wildly. You bounced your
last bounces, then succumbed to the nap.
Goodnight, wild child!
You went to bed in tears, Eldon, after a rough and tired morning. It wasn’t your fault that your brothers kept you up late last night. But your tiredness made all conflict ugly today. Conflict with your brother, your shoes, your food, and your mother: all of these erupted in frustrated screams and tears. Daddy put you down for your nap before the others. You needed sleep much more than you needed lunch, and you made that plain to us all. After I fed the others, I checked on the laundry and found your special blanket in the dryer. Fresh, warm, smelling of bounce sheets. I snuck upstairs with it. You were sleeping soundly, and I hoped that your dreams soothed away the trials of the morning. I gently covered you with your fresh-from-the-dryer blankie. Sleep well, dear one. May you wake soothed and comforted.
